Did we do something wrong ?

Its 8.54pm 27/12/2004 - Still in my office trying to complete some work and at the same time waiting for some mails. Its so sad to hear about the earthquake & tsunami wave. I havent heard of a 9.0 magnitude quake before. This is one of the worst disaster to ever hit SEA (South East Asia) . Many buildings in Malaysia felt the quake from Bandah,Aceh yesterday morning (past 9am Malaysia time). 40 0ver people was killed and 100 over missing in Penang,Malaysia.

I live in Kuala Lumpur, althought it looks closer to Indonesia but thank god we were not affected. I just read about hundreds of children were buried in mass grave in India. The death toll is currently 20,900. What did they do wrong to deserve this ? Why children ? Why the suffering ? Why the homeless ? dont we have enough pain in this world already. I have so many questions running in my mind... I have a few friends in Indonesia and i pray that they are ok.

I am not angry with God. As many say does God really exist? for me he does..and i dont need to ask him to do miracles to proof anything. He is with us... there must be a reason to all this. As what Mother Teresa use to say. Do good no matter what others say or do.

Mother was my greatest Saint... my greatest Idol. But God took her away... God needed her more than I did... and i understand.

Mother's Quotes
The dying, the cripple, the mental,
the unwanted,the unloved they are Jesus in disguise.

Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow has not yet come.
We have only today. Let us begin
Little things are indeed little,
but to be faithful in little things is a great thing.
It is not how much we do,
but how much love we put in the doing.

It is not how much we give,
but how much love we put in the giving.


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God has created us to love and to be loved,
and this is the beginning of prayer -to know that he loves me,
that i have been created for greater things.
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where has my days gone...

Did you really notice how fast the clock ticks, how fast time has past.
I still remember having my favourite cup of noodle with my classmates.
Wearing baggy pants to school and having weird hairdo.
I still remember making my teacher pissed and having stand in the blazing sun.
I missed all those years..

I still remember writting love poem for my classmates and charging
them for it. Where has all my wonderful years gone.
I dont really know how things will turn out to be,guess i got to wait and see.

when i m gone

Scarred in the pages of history
brought by the blood of innocents.
memory of the past hunts us all
Its us who have to move forward.

When i m gone.. be happy.
Its memories we had, will remain.
When i m gone.. dont u worry
I will be that shade that protects you.

When i m gone.. dont u cry
for it hurts me more.. seeing u.
When i m gone.. dont u look back
for i have ask God to bless ur path.

We will meet.. in God order
Follow his faith and thank his blessing
For each day we are apart..
apart of me is with you...

-Dev Emmanuel (14/12/04)

Remember when it rained.........

Its a beautiful Tuesday, I m still at work.. listening to this lovely track (Remember when it rained - Josh Groban) . Thanks to my dear friend,Duma. Who has the same interest in music. I just cant believe the year is coming to its end. Where has all my months gone? Am i heading on the right track? Staff Evaluation report.. that the main pain i will be facing soon. !! I haven't done anything like that before. Today i was the printer mechanic,an artist,a planner,the weather man, a love consultant (i hope i gave that dude the right advice..) ...my list can go on and on.

There was a saying!. "You can bring a horse to the water but u cant force it to drink !" That's so true. You can give advice or solutions..but.. u can't force people to take ur advice. Why !! Cause we are not perfect. We make mistakes in our lifes, we take the wrong path sometimes.. but its important for us to notice these errors. and work on being a better person. Lose the ego. Lose the slang or fame. Just be you. Have faith in all you do. Remember God and thank him for all.

(Your talent is God's gift to you ...what you do with it, is your gift back to him)

Christmas is around the corner. I have always love christmas. It means alot to me. I love the spirit which is in the air... i love touching Santa socks in people's home.. i love the cheerful smile on a child and the excitment they go through wanting to know what santa has in store for them. I love Christmas. Its a beautiful celebration of joy.

I met so many great people this year. Who has shown me the love of the world. I want to thank each and everyone of you from the bottom of my soul.

You have shown me hope..
you have shown me joy.
You have made me a better me.

You have shown me love
in the most beautiful manner.
I thank you for ur faith in me..
for giving me the great opportunity
to be your friend.

u are my soul inspiration....
(Keefy,Dumaria,Petra,Lucy,Martin,Kevin Benedict,Adrian John,Adrian Culas,Phebe,Freda,Shafik,Sally Wijaya,Sally Sow,Leela,Hema,Bibi,Cilia,Ranga,Shireen,Bobby Andrew,Jovine,Angie,Lim Siang Wei,Dee, Lau,Godfrey,Griffin,Ian&Celsie,Imelda, Jaya,Mohan, John,Kavitha,Livia,Mark,Max,Roy,Karen,Sahun,Siti.....)
to my great team (Draco Advertising & Teleris) - i adore ur courage & willpower
to my beloved parents for all the years of support and love.
Caroline - i treasure the years we had. Its God's plan we have to follow.

Dont we just love WiFi....especially when its free

Sunday,12th.December.2004,Venue Starbuck Cafe,Mont Kiara - enjoying free wireless broadband and my favourite cup of latte a skinny beautiful brunette walks pass my table and stop"Do you speak English ?" she questioned me. Still in a blur state of mind i replied "Beg ur pardon!" ..and she repeats.
"I need to know how to get to Sri Hartamas" "Oh!.. thats not hard.. u need to head back to the mainroad and head east and take a left turn at the first intersection.
with her beautiful smile she replied "Thanks".. "my pleasure" i replied and here i m back surfing. It took me almost to an hour just to get her image out my mind. Its close to 10am, i had to rush for my sunday mass at Assumption Church. This is the usual sunday i go through, same old routine on a different day only. :)

Dont worry i dont have any weird poems to post today!

the past that u cling to...

It's the simple things that means the most
Like a smile of a child, a close friend's touch.
That you'll miss the most. which makes u lose control.
When everything starts to vanish, only faded memory.
That keeps you going on...

Living a life which has no direction
Is my life worth to live. I tell myself.
A thousand unsolve reasons running in my mind.
A couple of years went by and i m still waiting.

I had nothing to cry about..
I think you properly knew,
I promise you once i'll be there,
I am still around,wondering what went wrong.
The mistakes you make and the price u pay.

the hermit is out.........

the world has a twisted sense of humor, I know it sounds like i’m just whining, but my ultimate goal is to live in complete peace as a financial free, coldplay-listener nature lover dude. OK it doesnt make sense... i know i can’t grieve over past blunder and relationship failures, because my mind simply dont want to process that. Right now i’m busy straining my brain, trying to move ahead and decide what would be best for me.

so, as one of my nasty primetime pleasures go: “for love or money?”
---the crazy poet continue.. --
You will never know,
how deep the ocean is.
how long i seek
a path to your heart

You will never find
true happiness in a hermit shell
the trails i left behind
the times i lost my mind

The tears of you will never dry
The wound on my heart will never heal
Never shall i look back
the years we were as one.